I really hate when I feel like I have a lost opportunity. I am the kind of person now that I say what I feel and try not to have the feelings of, I should of said that instead! I do not want to have the feeling of I wish I would of said that. I have let so much just slip by me and I do not want that anymore. I am all about living for now and not in the past. I cannot feel sorry for myself that I did not get raised by my natural parents or that I did not get to have the life I wish I would have growing up. I have to let stuff go and move on. I just had to write this for myself to see that it is okay to let it go and that it was not my fault that it ended up this way. I will write more later about it but I had to get this first step down.